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Hope. It's there somewhere. Hope is a great word. So great that it can make us feel tiny. Because hope feels like something that is not for us. Not for us, who are chastened by our own inner demons just as harshly as we feel we deserve. Because when demons grab us and drag us along, it feels like they'll never let go. As if we are doomed to be dragged deep down there, where our demons reside. Sometimes the words about hope and better times can feel like mockery. Mockery, while we’re being dragged through hell. And it's true. Hope sounds just like a beautiful word. Hope cannot be planted in us by force. And we cannot force ourselves to be hopeful. And yet, because before our final destruction we long for hope so badly, we may try to force ourselves to be hopeful. Only to find out we can't. Whereupon our inner demons get an even tighter grip on us, and we start to sink even faster. That's why we, who are already fighting so hard, shouldn't demand so much from ourselves. Because if forcing ourselves to be hopeful was that easy, we would have gotten rid of our demons a long time ago. That's why we should give ourselves grace. To allow ourselves to believe that at least one thing is true. That there is hope. That we have hope. That it's there. Even if we don't feel it. Even if we don't know what in the world could ever make us feel hope again. But if we just believe in hope, we don't need to know. For none of us has ever been, or will never be able to predict what life will give us in future. If we just believe in hope, it can save us. Save us from our final destruction, to where our demons are dragging us. Perhaps not permanently. But for the time being, so that we are able to escape our demons once more. So that we can just survive to see our next moment again. Because sometimes just surviving is enough. And if we just keep believing, maybe one moment can be the one for us. The one, when we truly find hope we've been longing for. How do you make your demons to let go?